Celebrity Crushes #2

Welcome back to another “Celebrity Crush” post. Today’s theme: Celebrity Crushes that I can’t explain and people are going think are completely bizarre.

In other words: Celebrity Crushes that I probably shouldn’t have!

No seriously, if you thought my celebrity crushes of the 90’s were bad, these are a whole new level of bad.
Let the judging begin!

	Alec (Continuum) [Erik Knudsen] I think it’s the nerd appeal. I mean his character is a computer genius (well, genius in general really) and he’s so adorably dorky and cute. Although I have to say, Erik Knudsen when he was in Saw looks like a doped up junkie, probably ideal considering his character, but not pretty. Also, pretty much the entire first season of Continuum, also not pretty. I think once he got a hair cut and stopped looking like an awkward 12 year old, he got a little bit better. Now he’s adorable AND nerdy. Win.
	Dave Franco I recently saw Now You See me, so now I have a thing for Magicians. Apparently. Actually, I’ve seen this guy in a few things and while I was totally for James Franco – he’s gone all artsy and weird, which is great and all, but he’s lost some appeal somehow. Anyway. Dave Franco. Adorably cute and thankfully, not as young as I thought. I really thought he was a lot younger than he actually is but no, he’s older than me. WINNING. Still a creeper though. And HEY MA, He’s JEWISH!
	Jesse Eisenberg Did I mention I recently saw Now You See Me? Yep, so previously, not an Eisenberg fan. I saw The Social Network, it was decent, from memory. But in his latest movie, he still has some of the adorkable appeal, still gives off that geeky/nerd vibe, however now with more bad boy appeal! Also Jewish and he has a sister with the same name as me! Yeh…that’s actually a bit weird.
	Byran Adams Bryan Adams from way back in the day, not old Bryan Adams. Seriously, try listening to his greatest hits and NOT be obsessed. Ok, I guess you have to be a fan of his music, but Oh my lord! Bryan Adams for the win; when his songs come on the radio, no body talk to me!
	WWE Superstar Edge (Adam Copeland) I never said I was perfect, stop judging me. Seriously. It’s the bad boy wrester type AND the fact that he appears in a whole heap of my favourite SyFy shows. Bad boy appeal. I’m telling you. It’s all about the bad boy appeal.

 

So, that’s my list of celebrities I probably should have a crush on, but I do. Seriously, think about it, there’s probably a celebrity you have a crush on that people think is slightly bizarre. It’s reality, not everyone is going to have the same taste as me and I’m perfectly fine with that!

Confessions of a bad Blogger

Hey there!

Remember me?
No?
Really?

I’m that blogger who sometimes watches James Bond movies, occasionally reads a book or two but more often then not, blogs about random things because I really have no idea what I really want to blog about.

Ring any bells?
No?

Damn.

Well, not to worry, I’m here now and I’m writing a blog, which is something. Hell, just typing the title was an achievement for me today. No seriously, I haven’t even been able to consider writing a blog since the beginning of the year and that’s a horrible feeling.

My semi-legitimate, semi-ridiculous, reason for not being able to blog has something to do with the fact that I have zero time and zero energy (doesn’t help that I have zero things to write about…)

For all those who don’t know, I’ve been studying for a diploma of some kind that will allow me to partake in some sort of work or something. Vague I know. The point is I’ve been so busy spending time on assignments, in lectures, in tutorials, racking up some workplace experience hours and maintaining my part time job that I have little time to do much else. Seriously, I hardly have time to sleep!

I will take this moment to have a small vent about my university, but basically they changed the course I’m in but forgot to change certain aspects of it; so it is now expected that we do 28 hours of work in a 24 hour time period. Basically. In it’s simplicity.

Today started my attempt to revamp my blog in order to motivate me into writing (I think it’s working?) I’m trying not to revamp it too much though; if you’ve been around from the beginning, you know that a revamp usually means a complete overhaul of my blog and I land up starting from scratch. Which I’m trying to avoid. I’m just trying to eliminate some of the clutter and make things a little bit more coherent. I apologise in advance for the inconvenience, but it’s a work in progress.

In the mean time. Yay for new ‘beginnings’?

So this happened…

I have this habit of dropping my phone, but before I go into that, lets start from the beginning. I went out and bought my iphone 2 years ago, I liked it, I bought cases for it and screen protectors, the whole nine yards because it was an iphone, it was the first iphone I ever had and I want to protect it with my life.


Eventually, however, I got lazy. The screen protector soon started to peel off and the desire to change the phone case once a week soon died out. I even started dropping it.


The first time I dropped my iphone, my heart sank into my stomach and I wanted to cry. But I picked up Mr iphone and he had survived the fall without a scratch. Eventually, dropping my iphone became a habit. Every time he was dropped, he survived like the little trooper he is.


This one time, on my walk back from work, I had a water bottle in my bag which I had accidentally left open and hey, what do you know, iphones don’t like taking baths. After a rough 12 hours, my iphone was back to normal and functioning as expected. After 2 more weeks, the camera started working as well. It was a rough recovery, but we made.


Then yesterday happened. I was in a parking lot and Mr iphone jumped out of my hand. It wasn’t a brutal fall, he just sort of fell. There was no thud noise like normal, there was no bounce like normal, it was just a sort of laying down on the floor without so much as a sound. As I’ve mentioned, I’ve dropped my phone a few times, usually it has landed with an all mighty thud which has left me with heart palpitations, but this time, there wasn’t a noise or even an inkling that something bad would result.


I calm bent down to pick up Mr iphone thinking it would be no big deal. As he was screen down (because apparently that’s how all iphones should land, because they aren’t like cats and automatically fall on the safest part of their body), I pick him up, laughing it off and turn over to see THIS







And you know what’s even more frustrating? Two weeks ago I was using a iphone case that could have potentially stopped this from happening! I guess on the bright side, my phone still works and lets me do everything I please as normal; and as an added bonus, my contract is up for renewal so I can just get the iphone 4s or something (I’m not too impressed with the iphone 5, so I’ll probably stick to the 4s)

Day Eleven: MEmeME!

If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? Would it be something physically? Would it be a personality trait or something you have a habit of doing?

Today’s prompt tackles just that, except in reverse:

[Day 11]: What's one thing that you would never change about yourself?

I don’t like the question “What would you change about yourself” because it gives room for those insecurities to pop out and eat away at you like some sort of flesh-eating bacteria. People are so quick to focus on all the negative attributes that they never seem to focus on the positive. I am guilt of doing this, all-the-time. My waist line isn’t small enough, my skin isn’t clear enough, my hair isn’t long enough, my nose is too big and so on and so forth, I’m pretty sure you get the gist of it. So often I watch ridiculous TV shows where girls argue why they want plastic surgery and why they aren’t perfect; this is such a negative way to think about things and I for one am trying ridiculously hard to change this, well, I am now.

So if you haven’t taken part in the 15 Day Challenge (or even those who have) I’m setting the challenge that you need to make a list of the top 5 things you like about yourself physically AND 5 things you like about your personality. I suck at lists because I get to point 2 and then have run out of ideas, but as this is the challenge I’m setting, I’m going to do it first. These are the things that I like about myself and therefore would never change about myself.

Personality

1. I have an awesome sense of humour

2. My ridiculous level of empathy for the people around me

3. My ability to care for the world around me

4. My determination to be better at the things I attempt

5. My drive to achieve the goals I set

 

Physically

1. My Eyes

2. My Boobs

3. My Butt (when I’ve been working out)

4. My Calf muscles

5. My Wrists (yep, I like them)

Day Ten: Embarrass yourself!

So today’s prompt is:

[Day 10]: What is your most embarrassing moment?

and as is the case when anyone asks me this question, I freeze up and have a huge brain fail because I cannot recall my most embarrassing moment. It’s not like I haven’t had thousands of embarrassing moments, I just can’t recall them when I need to and when I don’t need to remember them – they sneak up on me and surprise me. Thanks for that, brain! So what am I left with? The time I had one too many Sangria drinks in Spain, or the Attitude Adjusters that altered my state of mind in Venice? Or do I go with every first day of semester when I have to introduce myself to a whole new group of people and my face turns bright red with embarrassment?

To be quite honest, I can’t nail down one particular memory because there are far too many of them and like I said, my brain saves those memories for the moments where I really don’t need to be thinking of cringe-worthy things that I’ve done. So instead of talking about a particular memory, I’m going to try and talk about these embarrassing moments in general.

Throughout my life, there have been moments that have been varying degrees of embarrassing. The moments where you want to cringe or the moments where you just want to hide under a rock and never emerge. When I was 4 or 5, I remember being at a friends house and being so scared to use their bathroom because I was scared of my friends older brother, that it resulted in a very wet accident. I can assure you there was nothing sinister going on, people just scare me. That was one of the times you just never want to think about but occasionally pops into your head just to screw with you a bit. There are also those times that were alcohol induced but you can still remember them as clear as day and it doesn’t help that there is photographic evidence, those moments are especially devilish because even though you can blame it on the alcohol, there’s still no escaping that it was you and you really did dance on a table for fun.

 

Oh look, I’ve already managed to rattle off two embarrassing stories for you. But like I keep saying, embarrassing moments are just that not necessarily because of how cringe worthy they are when you are in the moment, no, they are so frustrating because they tend to stick with you and that back of your mind, waiting for the right moment where you shouldn’t be thinking about them, and they just pop into yours mind. Like during job interviews, while your watching a movie or while your in the middle of a very serious situation.

Job Interviewer: “So Kerri, Why should we hire you”

Kerri’s mind: “OK PEOPLE, Play that movie of when Kerri crashed her ex-boyfriends car”

Kerri: “…*turns bright red and then starts to cringe*…”

That really did happen by the way, well not the interview, although there have been times where I have been sitting outside waiting to go in for an interview and something hilariously inappropriate enters my mind. But the car thing, really did happen.

Unfortunately right now, I can’t think of any more specific moments in my life where something has been super embarrassing, although I do know they exist and I do know they will pop up at the worst possibly time. The worst part about these memories is that they are very hard to get rid of, they are always going to be there and I’m always going to cringe when I remember them. Although some of them are hilarious, for people like me, the constant reminder of those moments is enough to make us cry and as that painful memory replays itself in our heads, we wish we could do anything to make it go away and to go back in time and relive the moment differently. But I guess at the end of the day, that’s life, embarrassing moments and all! Some are hilarious, some make us cringe and some make us want to run and hide, but they are just one more piece of evidence that we live lives that aren’t written out perfectly for us, we take each step and we enter each moment differently and sometimes those steps give us good memories, sometimes those steps give us bad memories and then all the other times get left in the “embarrassing moments” box waiting like a jack-in-the-box to be let out when we “need” them the most.

Day Two: Six-Word Memoirs

Hello, Hello! Well it’s day two of the 15 day challenge and todays prompt is all about writing memoirs, short ones, 6 words to be exact. I didn’t know how I was going to do mine, I mean 6 words is really hard to work with! But then I saw Suze at Suze Blog at I really liked the way she set hers out. She came up with milestones or eras within her life and used them as a starting point to create the 6 word memoir. So because I think it’s such a great idea, I’m going to follow her lead and go with a similar method.

Childhood: Daydream Believing: adventure and magical hideaways.

Teenager: Pain, Anger and Truth with Lies.

20Something: Learning from the past; moving forward.

 

To go one step further, I’m going to explain my choice of words and why I feel they describe those decades in my life. First and foremost, the fun that was my child hood! I was a bit of a dreaming when I was younger, I was the type that believed in magical beings, fairies and other such things. I use to believe the characters in my books were real and there was a world of adventure I was missing out on. When I was living in New Zealand, our area use to flood a lot and I thought that I could be like Christopher Robin (but a girl) and turn an umbrella upside down and sit in it like a boat and it would take me away to some place amazing (clearly didn’t understand the concept of what floats and what sinks!) But my point is, I was one of those creepy kids that live in some imaginative world in their head because that’s just how they are.

As a teenager, I wasn’t exactly the poster child for perfection. I was really angry, I was sad, I was a jumble of emotions and while I realise it was my teen years and I’m not the only one to experience hardship in my life, I’m just well aware that all that pent up frustration I had and the animosity I had toward my parents and my family was part of the reason I made bad choices and basically led a life of self-destruction. I wasn’t a terrible teenager but I did make bad choices and if I could go back again and do it all over again OR if I could go back and tell my 15 year old self what she’s doing wrong, I would make it abundantly clear that I’m stronger than the choices I make, I don’t need to be impressing anyone else or fighting for the attention of my parents, I just need to find my own courage and make the choices I know are right.

 

And clearly my 20something memoir is fairly self-explanatory. I’m smarter these days and I’ve made plenty of mistakes in the past that I know what I need to learn and what I need to change in order to shape the future I want. The past is the past and there isn’t anything I can do about it to change it, I made my mistakes and whether or not the choices I made back then were right or wrong, I can’t change them; all I can do is look to the future and realise that the mistakes of my past are what gave my strength in the present.